Great turn of event?!
Alone on Wednesday, August 5, 2009
So ... I JUST found out that I've won Queenie's Mascara giveaway and it's freaking CRAZY. So random and unexpected! O_0 Never thought I would win, and I guess... good things come when you're least expecting it? -.- or something along that line... I .. had a laugh-attack when I told Colin the news. xD should buy me a lottery ticket! who knows! I think I'll do a review on youtube as thanks! =o
Anyways... It's been a month since my last rant... knowing that people will check out my blog from Queenie's blog makes me shudder... As much as I can disclose about my real identity to keep me hidden, some noob will eventually figure it out... and especially Colin bb. AND I used my most frequently used email... I wondered if Blogspot was a good idea. I wanted to try it because I use gmail and it's bothersome trying to remember even MORE account log-ins.
My days have been improving. Less stressed and MORE FREE TIME! =D
I'm officially OFF FROM WORK in two more days. D: I'm getting 2 weeks ( more like 8 working days) before school starts again. And oh man, does school suck. I can't freaking get financial aid people on the line to find out my status! Crazy! I wonder if it's the right choice to stay in my area.
On that note about area, I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY want to move. Seriously. I despise this neighborhood so much. I can't even wear summer clothes without the thought of some creepy old dudes appearing from somewhere and showing me his ****. WORST experienceS in my LIFE. I seriously can't wait till I can drive. My dad probably doesn't know about it or he would just think/say I go out too much yadda yadda. License. Here I (try to) GO!
I've gotten paid for the last time for my summer intern job! =D It was quite boring.. more like free-money but I'm ABSOLUTELY saving it for books in the fall. :( IF my financial aid stuff doesn't come through. Ah, I'm in a bind! About whether to get the BOGOF at CT on these fobby looking bags. I can only find ONE bag I like and most likely will use for school. I hope the place doesn't close down before I decide! Eek! I was thinking to get any cute ones... and try to resell it off on soompi.
Yvonne is coming back from CHINA tomorrow. I was going to see her, but I guess they wouldn't have enough space for me. She trusts/likes/hangs out with Jill more even though I'm a block away? I thought Yvonne was my true bff, but she seems to be neglecting me .. probably because I'm not always happy go lucky like Jill or that I don't know enough chinese. I want a bff... even though I know it doesn't last forever. Jill is cute but I don't think we think alike. She has waaaay different tastes and only care for chinese things. Whereas I am a Japanese-Korean whore. :(
It's kinda lonely knowing I had force Alice to let go. We clicked. I was just selfish thinking I had her to always fall back on. I had enough of being a guardian and wanting to be cared for. Boy, was I immature. Now it's too late. She's gone and I'm at loss.
I want to reach out
I want to tell someone they're awesome
I want to share my stories
I want to tell them how happy I am
I want to tell them how beautiful they look in that shirt
But I have noone to tell it too.
I'm just a self-centered, pathetic loser who's afraid of jumping in the pond because I don't want to get hurt hitting rock bottom.
<3 that one Asian girl
Little Miss Queenie's giveaway~
Alone on Tuesday, August 4, 2009
MAYBELLINE PULSE PERFECTION!
Hurrah a great chance to try it out (that is IF I win.)
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Check out Queenie's bloggg~ (That I have been stalking for a while... xD)